A few little poems

It's been a strange week, but in a really good way! As I said before, I'm really starting to feel a little more like 'me' and that made me think and wonder about my darker times, earlier this year, when things really weren't good.
I started writing poems as an outlet to the madness in my head - some when I was well and some when I was really bad. Today I feel like sharing the ones when I was really bad, then starting to get better. These 3 poems were written at a stage where I was feeling suicidal and was clutching at anything that would stop me doing something stupid!( my family!) I just wanted to share, especially to those other unfortunates who have depression in whatever form - I know the bad, but from the fall the only way to go is back up again.
Let me know what you think:

The endless darkness.

You listen to me when I’m sad

And try to make things not so bad.

The pain just won’t go away

There’s nothing that anyone can say.

My tears fall silently in the night,

I pray that something might show the light.

I’m tired, I ache and my brain won’t stop,

It feels like I’m falling with no end to the drop.

Can anyone out there really know

How guilty I feel and how terribly low?

I feel like I’ve been ripped from inside

Of my spirit, my life, my purpose and pride.

There’s nothing left but an empty shell

In a spiralling darkness of personal hell.

Melissa Wise

My saviour.

I felt you in the distance

Send your support and love

To try and shield and protect me

Like a cold hand in a warm glove.

I felt you drawing nearer

When my hour of need was most

Stopping the worst from happening

Me draining from flesh to a ghost.

I felt you standing by my side

When the darkness was all around

Showing unconditional love

Those times I wish I had died.

I know that you’ll always be there

My loving, protective one

You’ll find me the light to show me the way

You’ll save me by showing just how much you care.

Melissa Wise

Awakening

The light came shining from above,

An energizing gift, full of hope and of love.

The dazzling colours dancing around,

Like waves crashing over the dark, gloomy ground.

New feelings begin to flourish and grow

Happy thoughts breaking through endless sorrow.

A world of new possibilities are born,

A wealth of new feeling emerge with his dawn.

As if waking from some horrible dream,

Strength, belief and control start to gleam.

Like beacons of life beginning to grow,

Lighting the dark with a powerful glow.

Melissa Wise

 Next time I'll post some of my more 'light hearted' poems!!